…when the fun stops? And before panic sets in know that I ask this mainly of my hobby/business. I loved, at one time, to make jewelry. Now I find myself sitting and staring blankly at my beads. Nothing creative coming forth from the ol’ noodle. It’s all very sad. I remember this hobby was the brainchild of a beautiful trip to Savannah and when I knew I needed something to take up time while we waited. Part of me always wanted to see it flourish into something bigger than myself, but the other part of me was completely content to have it fill time and space.
I kept revisiting my thoughts on this as time went by, always coming to the crossroads and never making a definitive decision on what to do next. Reflectively, I do that with a lot of decisions in my life. Sometimes, I make sound decisions of which I’m thrilled about. It’s the process of making said decision that I drag on.
Anyway, before I digress too much…beads.jewelry. One would think this would not be a big deal, a black or white issue. I don’t really make enough to keep going, but the biz pays enough to have lunch occasionally, and put more beads in the tray. When I am making pieces, I feel so good. It’s nice to start and finish a project when so often I’m treading water like the rest of the world. So especially at the end of a frustrating day, I feel a sense of accomplishment when I spin out a necklace or bracelet. I still have a lot of inventory, which whether I stay in our get out, I need to sell those beads. Which starts a whole other question, how will I sell them?
as Pooh would say, “think, think, think.”
Maybe I give it all another month. Craft market starts up April4th, but I’m not signing up until May. I have a show at the end of April at a local church consignment sale.
agh….we’ll see. I’m still unresolved about this.
~~~In LG news~~~
My new webname is going to be mama jaja. Simply because when LG says pajama…he says “jaja”.
I love him.
He’s learned to make the kissie sound which more than cute, it’s down right devourable.
I borrowed a book on positive discipline from our sitter, and have used some of the techniques from it. It takes a lot of work to re-frame how we think about discipline and logical vs. natural consequences. I feel like I have to constantly stay 3-steps ahead and watch my tone constantly while hoping nothing goes totally awry when I “outline” what we are going to do in the process of a morning outing (for instance). He’s responded well to most of it, although I do have to pull an old “fave” my mom used while we were growing up….the counting game if we were being naughty!!! “1…2…” I haven’t figured out what I would do if I got to three, because I never get past “1″. LOL!!! I know that will change!! 
3 favorite things this week…belly laughs, the big hug I received and smooch on my check at bedtime earlier in the week and watching him interact with my sister at dinner last night. she’s a good auntie. 
have a blessed week…
Mama JaJa!
